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25.6.09
there is another world, there is a better world
I seriously absolutely utterly adore rain.
particularly when I am able to walk through it without a care in the world. For some reason, though probably bizarre sounding, it makes me feel free. Today it had the ability to let me forget about some of the bullshit I've been putting up with recently.I've come to realise that everything currently bothering me is a relentless force I can only escape by avoiding the people involved. I know it's weak to avoid a problem but when someone is incapable of letting things go or facing the honest facts, you can't do much else. Attempts to fix anything have gotten me nowhere and I'm pretty sure I'm wasting my time caring about how things will end up. While drama makes things interesting, it's exhausting and I don't think I can begin to understand why people intend to cause such chaos. By removing myself from people who get high off drama and complications, I can rebuild my strength and be who I want to be. Not who other people think I should be.
what the fuck ever.
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21.6.09
the end
seems to me if you can't trust, you can't be trusted.
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17.6.09
And I think forever and always when I look back to now, this current time, all I will think of is the lives I effectively harmed. Not physically, but emotionally. What a burden my existence can be.
I am ruled by those around me because I cannot think or act appropriately. I cause chaos. And it pains me that I do but I can't stop it because I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
Want to wake up from this nightmare that seems to be reality.
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10.6.09
Story of the Day
Alex says:
and i mean that literaly
i stepped in shitand i mean that literaly
on the way from my car to my front door
which is like 3 metres
and we have a driveway
and we dont have a dog
Alex says:
so someone else has been shitting in our front yard
to make matters worse
i didnt even notice
and i was walking around in my house for about 2 or 3 mins before i noticed
so now it's all over the carpets
and the floorboards
Alex says:
and the house stinks
there was a big chunk that i had to pick up and throw outsid
how the fuck do you get dog shit out of carpets?
ive already attacked it but no result especially not with the smell
i am literally raging right now
CLEAN UP AFTER YOUR FUCKING ANIMALS PEOPLE
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9.6.09
6/9/2009 9:52:53 PM
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8.6.09
I want to fall in love so I can believe that it's real.
I want to feel happy so I can stop being cynical and start being nice again.
I want to figure out the point of anything or something.
I want to have the backbone to not care what other people think of me...
And the skin to not be bothered by what they say to me.
I want to achieve moments in my life that are simple and beautiful like those in 80's films.
I want to be proud of my decisions and of what I achieve.
I want the world and the impossible.
Life's a dream that never comes true.
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4.6.09
insecurities
June the 4th. A little past 10pm. And I'm back to lingering on wishing I was beautiful.
It doesn't make sense really. For short periods of time I believe I'm slightly attractive, then it falls away and I kill my self esteem further by scrolling through photograph after photograph of beautiful girls. I wonder if God works beauty around the honesty and kindness a soul demonstrates in a previous life. Who knows?Yesterday was my last official day for first semester at university. It was fairly pointless on account I only had one class of an hour. I ran into my childhood best friend Caity at the tram stop on Summerhill Road though which was kind of nice. I haven't conversed with her since we were around twelve years old and considering we were both heading in the direction of Monash, I had a nice conversation with her for the 50 minute trip there. It's funny how when you haven't seen anyone for a while, you run into lots of people all within a short amount of time and then never see anyone again for ages. The day before I'd seen Claire and Yamini on the 75 tram as well. Maybe it's just the 75 tram line that is full of everybody that I know though usually they catch it at different times.
I like simplicity but at the same time I miss drama. Drama makes things exciting. It works wonders in taking away the monotony of life so I'm guessing this is why humans take things so seriously and make mountains out of mole hills. Strange how opinions always change. Even stranger is the way we always want what we do not or cannot have.
Humans: The pickiest fucks the world ever created.
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1.6.09
buzzzz
While I'm on a negative streak here, I've come up with a list of characteristics within humans that drive me insane.
Secondly, there is the poor form in not fighting for beliefs and remaining passive. Seriously, when i argue with someone about something important and meaningful, I don't want to hear "I know" or "you're so right". Either you agree or you disagree. Disagreeing is mostly amazing because it lives for creating interesting discussion. Agreeing with the aforementioned phrases (eg. "I know") just makes you look like you're sucking up. So agree with passion. Not stupid cliche phrases. Also.. don't just be like, 'eh, i'm just too lazy to agree or disagree with you'. That's bogus! Get real. Thankyou.First up, we have unnecessary anger. It's all well and good that anger is human behaviour but when it's completely over the top and occurs over the most unimportant things, it makes me want to blow mine (or their) brains out. It ends up relating to logic and perseverance the majority of the time (thanks Leah) which transforms into the idea that if you fucking think about things logically, they're not going to get you excessively mad. Enough said for this one, and for the record, I'm not picking on any one person FYI ;]
Thirdly, we have boys who take the easy way out and get what they want without working for it. I mean this by way of sex. They know they can get it easily, so they take it. Just throwing it out there, when did easy win the gold medal in life experience? Working for things is everything but it seems to have lost importance in our generation. Where's the sense of achievement if you score every 5 minutes of the game? That said, what's with the girls who let this happen?
I suppose that brings us to number 5. People who yell in public because they want attention. Usually I see this occurring on Friday and Saturday nights, and no, this isn't always due to alcohol consumption. It seems to be because.. well.. see above. The girls who let this happen. Get some mystery on. Damnnn girlll. As for guys, no one cares if you're the alpha male and hilarious because you can gain the negative attention of strangers. And if it is due to alcohol consumption, please keep your liquor intake to a level in which you still have access to the volume control. Case closed.
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