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31.5.08
keys to my heart
Oh internet.
You are my world and my wonder.
Without you I am nothing.
I missed you terribly
<3
0 fat astronauts
30.5.08
bloggy
Things that drive me absolutely crazy:
- When people think they can tell me how to feel/how not to feel and whether or not I am allowed to feel the way I am feeling.
- the way society is so over the top with issues involving pornography, sexism, racism, etc.
- School and lack of sleep making me wayy sensitive and overly-emotional.
-Distance, time and complicatedness.
4 fat astronauts
28.5.08
Untitled.
Haven't written since Monday due to the fact that I have nothing much at all to say lately.
Today was the most uneventful day. I finished school at recess (which was lucky because I was super dooper tired), came home, finished watching last couple of episodes of Summer Heights High and went to bed.
I only woke up at 5.30pm and had a crazy dream about John Gatip's house being a mansion where they were holding a massive party and then something to do with Tattslotto where people crawled inside an orb and got shot around collecting numbers.
I only woke up at 5.30pm and had a crazy dream about John Gatip's house being a mansion where they were holding a massive party and then something to do with Tattslotto where people crawled inside an orb and got shot around collecting numbers.
But about Chris Lilley.. that man's a flipping genius. I love his work. However, the fact that every last episode in his series (both Summer Heights High AND We Can Be Heroes) makes me get all sad and cry is insane. I don't even know how he manages to make a comedy sad. Talented is definitely what he is.
In other news, I'm really really looking forward to the G.A.T because it means school is over very very very soon. And not only now do I have no-more-school to look forward to in december, I have Corey coming to Australia to look forward to as well. Mega exciting stuff.
peace.
3 fat astronauts
26.5.08
less than three makes a whole
i luhh youu. && you make me happy too.
and yes, you know who you are.
I wish you would wake the fuck up though.
SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK.
In other news...today was hella uneventful.
Maths, English, Art and Media were all a blur of un-interestingness.
I'm very tired, lack of sleep is making me daydream and zoneout and I cbf with the rest of this week at school. sigh.
Holidays and end of year come fast. gogogo.
peace. x
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24.5.08
All of my life, I call Yesterday
It just so happens to be Saturday, meaning that tomorrow is definitely Sunday, which is most unfortunately the day before Monday which equals to school.
Last night was a beastly night. It was one of those incredibly spontaneous times when nothing is really planned but everything just falls into place. It began with a plan to go to Daniel's (which failed) so we were going to go see Indiana Jones. We being, of course, myself, Amy and Matt.
So anyway...we were waiting for Maddy and Rayel who Matt had organised to meet with and all of a sudden, all these people got off this tram, including Mad&&Raye. And they all just so happened to be people from school so we hung around the park and we didn't do all that much but it was wickedly fun. We had to collect Rusy from Alamein and then she came back to mine for a bit afterwards.
Matt stayed the night and kept me up with his chatter for about 4 hours and I woke up at 8am which was insanely retarded but I wasn't really all that tired until now.
Matt stayed the night and kept me up with his chatter for about 4 hours and I woke up at 8am which was insanely retarded but I wasn't really all that tired until now.
I want to sleep so very badly, but at the same time, I want to be instant-messaging CoreyGeneSmith so it's all very difficult. I cannot make a decision.
I'm totally bummed right now on account I finished the first season of Sabrina today leaving me with nothing to watch when I have nothing to do. I'm planning on investing on the second season very very soon so don't like, worry your little heads about it though.
Your favourite TV show is..?
4 fat astronauts
23.5.08
Rhiann0n's insanely st00pid quiz
Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren't?
Obviously. Sometimes you gotta keep low feelings to yourself.
What are you looking forward to?
1) End of this term.
2) Formal, but more the fact I get to stay out all night. not the actual thing.
3) Exams
4) Exams finishing so I am free of school.
5) Meeting Corey within a year.
6) More people turning 18 so we can go to overage gigz.
7) Getting into the course I want at Univ.
8) Travelling.
9) Writing a successful novel.
10) Learning guitar.
11) Fridays
12) Having my own house/apartment.
13) Seeing Airbourne live again.
14) Meeting Link. (I wish)
Do you think anyone in general out there loves you? I'd hope so
What have you done so far today? I went to school. And then I went shopping with mama.
What is one thing you miss about your past? Simplicity.
Did you cry today? Nopee.
Where were you at 8:00 this morning? Watching Sabrina and wriggling into my stockings at home
Who do you make fun of the most? Dad. HE's easy to poke fun at.
Do you find it in your heart to forgive? I always forgive...eventually.
Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing? Snow because I never seen it.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over? Just the one in terms of love. I've cried over things non-lovey ones have said.
What are you wearing? The best shirt ever and other clothes that aren't exciting.
Where were you when you heard about the World Trade Towers? At breakfast. I was shocked.
Do you like your phone? IT"S ALL THE SAME> AHHHH. (in simple, no)
Obviously. Sometimes you gotta keep low feelings to yourself.
What are you looking forward to?
1) End of this term.
2) Formal, but more the fact I get to stay out all night. not the actual thing.
3) Exams
4) Exams finishing so I am free of school.
5) Meeting Corey within a year.
6) More people turning 18 so we can go to overage gigz.
7) Getting into the course I want at Univ.
8) Travelling.
9) Writing a successful novel.
10) Learning guitar.
11) Fridays
12) Having my own house/apartment.
13) Seeing Airbourne live again.
14) Meeting Link. (I wish)
Do you think anyone in general out there loves you? I'd hope so
What have you done so far today? I went to school. And then I went shopping with mama.
What is one thing you miss about your past? Simplicity.
Did you cry today? Nopee.
Where were you at 8:00 this morning? Watching Sabrina and wriggling into my stockings at home
Who do you make fun of the most? Dad. HE's easy to poke fun at.
Do you find it in your heart to forgive? I always forgive...eventually.
Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing? Snow because I never seen it.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over? Just the one in terms of love. I've cried over things non-lovey ones have said.
What are you wearing? The best shirt ever and other clothes that aren't exciting.
Where were you when you heard about the World Trade Towers? At breakfast. I was shocked.
Do you like your phone? IT"S ALL THE SAME> AHHHH. (in simple, no)
2 fat astronauts
21.5.08
Epic like your mama
The shame.
For Matt Parker that is.
He doesn't watch the IT Crowd. I tsk a thousand times at learning this.
Tonight I have decided:
- Some friends are not worth the time I try to put in to make the friendship happen
- More songwriters need to write songs about loves they could never have, rather than loves they have lost
- I want to dye my hair again even though Today Tonight says it'll give me cancer.
If you had $3000, what would you do with it? x
3 fat astronauts
19.5.08
when you're older, you'll understand
I'm so happy at the moment but at the same time, my emotions are crazy and little things upset me way easily.
These last few weeks have been uber hectic with excessive amounts of SACs and I'll be so very glad when we get up to exams because it pretty much means we've just a term left of school for life.
FREEEEDOM. Relax.
I took my dog for a walk this afternoon for the first time in ages and I'm so very glad I did. I always forget how calming the park is and how much I love that little terror of a dog. I swear she's the silliest animal on earth almost. I laugh aloud at the things she does so much I must look insane to other people who are walking their dogs. :]
And speaking of pets, everytime I look at my lovely kitty I almost die because of how cute she is.
SRSLY. HOW CAN ONE CREATURE BE SO ADORABLE?
Catcha on the catwalk, kids. x
2 fat astronauts
17.5.08
Awww.
2 fat astronauts
16.5.08
0 fat astronauts
Tried to say I'd be your echo
I MISS YOU BABY
Compliments from those who rarely make compliments are just so much better than ones from people who give them all the time.
I feel weird this afternoon. I'm upset, angry and happy all at once. I don't even know how that's possible but I guess it depends on what I'm thinking about.
I want this school year to be over so bad.
It's killing slooooowly with it's song.
I'm rick springfield. and i'm a vulpix. What are you?? :]
2 fat astronauts
15.5.08
I'm just trying to understand the way we are
- Love appears to stir within people a hidden beauty that can be reached in no other fashion.
- I wish I could make music that'd mean something to people more than anything in the world; cause feelings to stir within a person I never even met.
- Is there an -ology to absolutely every thing on earth?
1 fat astronauts
leaves on your lashes
Thumbs down to excessively-long feeling weeks. Today is meant to be Friday.
My eyes keep glazing over and I just stare and forget to blink.
It's a mixture of tiredness and the emphasis the tiredness is placing upon various emotions inside my head.
Weekend now please God.
Love your best buddy, Stephaleph. xox
My eyes keep glazing over and I just stare and forget to blink.
It's a mixture of tiredness and the emphasis the tiredness is placing upon various emotions inside my head.
Weekend now please God.
Love your best buddy, Stephaleph. xox
1 fat astronauts
13.5.08
I get carried away with every phrase and made up melody
I hope that photographs tell lies in terms of my appearance. Seriously. Oh my goodness.
I've spent most of my afternoon trawling through the photos from the Central Australia trip last year. It's so lovely to reminisce on positive past experiences. I didn't really enjoy the trip so much at the time, but looking back on it, it holds some really good memories.
I wish I could write lyrics like the boys from Motion City Soundtrack. They're spontaneous and pretty and flow oh-so perfectly without rhyme. Brilliant is what they are.
"WHEN I GROW UP I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE YOU"
Facts:
The apple smiles because he knows the orange is wrong and always will be.
He's winning at life on the inside with that smile. :]
I've spent most of my afternoon trawling through the photos from the Central Australia trip last year. It's so lovely to reminisce on positive past experiences. I didn't really enjoy the trip so much at the time, but looking back on it, it holds some really good memories.
I wish I could write lyrics like the boys from Motion City Soundtrack. They're spontaneous and pretty and flow oh-so perfectly without rhyme. Brilliant is what they are.
"WHEN I GROW UP I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE YOU"
Facts:
- Hearts are broken. Their shape is the cause.
- You'll never in your life really see the sincere, absolute beauty of yourself.
- Music is a healer for both the creator and the listener in incomprehensible ways.
The apple smiles because he knows the orange is wrong and always will be.
He's winning at life on the inside with that smile. :]
1 fat astronauts
12.5.08
Beauty in the breakdown
I think you're beautiful.
That you're definitely something.
What they say or said is just a way to shield from eyes their insecurities.
It's oh-so sad to see the distress on such a pretty thing.
To learn that they walk the clouds is tragedy that can't be unbroken.
i wish i could fix, but I can't. And I feel useless because of this.
3 fat astronauts
11.5.08
love of my life
1 fat astronauts
Tears are the life of my emotions
Can't say I'm a big fan of nights like these.
The kind where words cause upset..
And before you know it, because of those stupid words, things start going rather badly as well.
I feel like crap about everything 'me' tonight. And if you're going to have a cry and tell me how stupid I am for being all negative about myself, please do not leave me a comment because I have no care for it.
I looked in the mirror and despise what I see. I feel uncomfortable in my skin and everytime words leave my mouth, I wish I'd choke on them rather than have them escape.
My personality and appearance together construct this pathetic sack of bones and flesh; a creation that does not deserve existence, friends or respect.
I'm totally hating on myself right now, but my misery is eager to destroy the little optimism inside of me. I'm miserable yet I can't even to begin to think what it is that it making me this miserable. Nothing stands out at all..a bunch of stupid little things the only reasons available.
i wish thoughts made sense inside my head.
0 fat astronauts
10.5.08
Pour my life into a paper cup
Things are just so silly sometimes.
lollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollol
And in this case, I mean it in a negative sense.
In a life of not so many years, I don't understand
why people have to linger on the things that can be got
why people have to linger on the things that can be got
over in half a second. Grudges are just so very very pointless.
Silly can be positive too though..
lollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollollol3 fat astronauts
8.5.08
if it makes you scared, don't go to sleep with her in your head
It's hard to know what's really going on inside your head when everybody around you seems to think they know what you're thinking. Considering I take to mind the opinions and views of others so seriously, sometimes I start to believe all wrong. It's like being told by somebody that you have a snail in your hair, and so you're all "whatever. as if" but then inside your head, you start to think maybe there is a snail in your hair, so you start thinking and checking.
I do this so often lately; convincing myself of something when it's nowhere near to my true thoughts and feelings.
Thoughts:
- Dark and twisted creations, to me, are more beautiful than any realistic 'perfect' forms the world interprets as beautiful.
- Morals I've kept since year 7 are appearing less and less important on the larger scale of life.
- I don't know why, but I'm never 100% happy with anything. I'm strangely critical of even the tiniest, slightly unimportant things I do.
I do this so often lately; convincing myself of something when it's nowhere near to my true thoughts and feelings.
Thoughts:
- Dark and twisted creations, to me, are more beautiful than any realistic 'perfect' forms the world interprets as beautiful.
- Morals I've kept since year 7 are appearing less and less important on the larger scale of life.
- I don't know why, but I'm never 100% happy with anything. I'm strangely critical of even the tiniest, slightly unimportant things I do.
- Music is the most amazing thing to exist. To stir emotion within somebody with your voice or the way your play your instrument must make you feel insanely special.
- Beauty lies in the simple things. Always.
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6.5.08
2 fat astronauts
2.5.08
This underground was for sinners and we embraced it
I think I figured out how to interpret my feelings. On account my belly does that flippy thing when I'm nervous or anxious as well, sometimes I can't figure out whether it's a crush-thing or just CRAZY ANXIOUS WORRY. But I'm quite sure I've discovered the difference. 
I'm wicked bored right now and regretting my choice in staying home instead of going out. Nobody online to message, I grew tired of dying when attempting to beat the boss in Zelda and the TV is taken, so I can't watch a mooovie. Instead I am stuck searching the web for Marilyn Monroe quotes because she literally has some of the best in the entire world. Tis a pity she died so early on in her life.
This whole crush thing..has returned for a person nobody who reads this would expect. I felt it last year but I didn't have the guts to admit it to anybody for fear they'd destroy me with it. Not intentionally..and it's not like that person isn't brilliant, it's just a whole different factor I'm not even going to bother explaining. :]
I'm wicked bored right now and regretting my choice in staying home instead of going out. Nobody online to message, I grew tired of dying when attempting to beat the boss in Zelda and the TV is taken, so I can't watch a mooovie. Instead I am stuck searching the web for Marilyn Monroe quotes because she literally has some of the best in the entire world. Tis a pity she died so early on in her life.Ben Folds is a champion. That is all. x
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